So, in conjunction with my prior request for a consultation, I am slowly beginning to realize that the endeavor, was regulated by a type of stubborn, "buckled down" persuasion, in which I can commit to a foreign language, pass the course but only at the course of subconsciously committing to other tasks, unable to explain how I could pass a final exam in the Japanese language. 

I don't think my old lawyer knew I was selling a cross connection, of a four year commitment, to regimented focus, that could be applied to any area, cinema, poetry, music etc. etc. to a small group of clients, whose work I connected as aiding in the concentration process, hence the nature of the importance of their association.  He couldn't have understood that, hence my willingness to pay the hi rate.  We can do an extravagant retainer and video consultation if you can receive and forward the item for the cost, and I can switch out of mode before other parties, try to persuade me to commit to another work.